Today I fell in love with you

I danced around the kitchen with a wine

lost with Harry Neilson

I imagined you singing with me

‘I’m going where the weather suits my clothes’

I imagined you smiling

and dropping everything

to sing and dance around the kitchen too

whilst the meatballs bubbled

hitting the high notes at the end together

loudly, whether or not we can sing

I knew of you a short while ago

I knew because I was told

I was told I would meet you

connect with you

deeply

I am afraid you will not dance

you will not see me

only see the person you want to make

and I am afraid I will connect with that

a changer, of me

and I wonder

do you kiss eyelids

succumb to passion just because you can

I was told of you

and now I am in love

with the idea of you, not you

so before I have begun

I have sabotaged us

and will withdraw before

you can kiss my eyelids

enough to have me fall at your feet

and dance around the kitchen

verify me, show me a happiness

I have not seen before

so much to ask

from someone whom I love

so deeply

that can only hold it, absorb it, keep it for me

if.... life has taught enough lessons

that you have been willing to learn

so that disappointment

does not shatter and kill

what is already begun

so that we can dance again

to that hoochie coochie man

in the kitchen

with the wine

knowing truly, who I am